Letting the Days Go Bye

I am having a minor meltdown week.

If meltdowns can be considered minor (?)

I dont know what is up.

(maybe it is my janked up hair cut?)

Random things have set me off this week.

I just feel like I have stopped in the midst of where I am and what I am doing

and my brain is bombarding me with one thought:

" What the hell am I doing?"

And along with this question come a plethora of others that just add to the meltdown:

" I should have done this way back then."

"Why didnt I do that when I had the chance?"

" That was a huge mistake!"

and I know that most of you are probably not regret people.

And I am not saying I live in the past and over think it.

But I am definitely a "What If" person which I think can translate into someone who carries around some regret.

And I think this "What if/regret" is what is causing my minor meltdowns.

Do any of you ever get like this?

I think the reason I sometimes live in the regret/what if land is because I am still not totally sold on my life at the moment.

I mean I am happy and life is good.

But what the heck am I doing?

And I think because there is so much I still want and long for but dont know how to complish or get to,

I tend to live in the past and ponder the What If's and dwell on the shoulda coulda wouldas.
In College,

My roommate Dieter and I would jam out,

quite consistantly, to the Talking Heads.

and today I remembered one of there songs that pretty much sums up (with a catchy tune) what I feel and where I am right now.

Oh and this one too, my all time favorite song, pretty much sums it up too.

Peace,