Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. - Proverbs 13:12
I think about this verse a lot.
The idea of delayed, or deferred hope.
I think if you are a twenty something, on your own, recently out of college, person like me you have probably experienced delay or deferment on some of your hopes.
Whether you hoped for:
The perfect first career
The perfect boyfriend or husband
The perfect home or apartment
The perfect friends
The perfect salary
or the perfect fulfillment of what your 20-something post college life would be like
I bet in some way, whatever you hoped for, has been deferred.
I hate that feeling. Because it really does make your heart sick.
Hopelessness is no good.
I hate that feeling.
It is one of my biggest struggles.
I get mad
and sad
and then I just wallow in self pity.
It really is like being sick.
But I am tired of it.
I don't want to waste these fun, once-in-a-lifetime 20 something years on hopelessness concerning plans and dreams that I can't control.
I want to look back and be able to say,
" I really lived, despite the deferment of what I thought my life was going to be like."
I have found in searching for a remedy for delayed hope that rest is the best medicine.
So many times when this hopelessness about something that should or didn't happen creeps into my life I tend to play the waiting game.
And waiting can cause inpatients and just work me into more anger, sadness and self pity over my hopelessness.
What I need is to rest.
To rest in knowing that I am right where I need to be right now.
Rest in knowing that I am not behind in anyway or have been left in anyway.
Rest in knowing that I am not alone.
And rest in knowing that it all will work for the good and that my future (and yours too) is filled with hope, prosperity and all goodness. (Jeremiah 29:11)
I think about this verse a lot.
The idea of delayed, or deferred hope.
I think if you are a twenty something, on your own, recently out of college, person like me you have probably experienced delay or deferment on some of your hopes.
Whether you hoped for:
The perfect first career
The perfect boyfriend or husband
The perfect home or apartment
The perfect friends
The perfect salary
or the perfect fulfillment of what your 20-something post college life would be like
I bet in some way, whatever you hoped for, has been deferred.
I hate that feeling. Because it really does make your heart sick.
Hopelessness is no good.
I hate that feeling.
It is one of my biggest struggles.
I get mad
and sad
and then I just wallow in self pity.
It really is like being sick.
But I am tired of it.
I don't want to waste these fun, once-in-a-lifetime 20 something years on hopelessness concerning plans and dreams that I can't control.
I want to look back and be able to say,
" I really lived, despite the deferment of what I thought my life was going to be like."
I have found in searching for a remedy for delayed hope that rest is the best medicine.
So many times when this hopelessness about something that should or didn't happen creeps into my life I tend to play the waiting game.
And waiting can cause inpatients and just work me into more anger, sadness and self pity over my hopelessness.
What I need is to rest.
To rest in knowing that I am right where I need to be right now.
Rest in knowing that I am not behind in anyway or have been left in anyway.
Rest in knowing that I am not alone.
And rest in knowing that it all will work for the good and that my future (and yours too) is filled with hope, prosperity and all goodness. (Jeremiah 29:11)
Peace,
if blogger had a "like" button, i'd push it on this one. and you know what? even when you get to where you thought you'd want to be in life, your hopes change again...
ReplyDeleteone of my favorite sayings has always been: change is the only constant you can count on
and it's true. keep your head up and enjoy all the things that are going on right now. no reason to miss out on them... (can that be my "big sister" advice for the day?)
Hang in there, I think we all feel this way at 25...it's the quarter life crisis! I promise, it's going to get better and better each year!
ReplyDeleteJust passed through your blog, I'm gonna have to follow you now! This post is exactly how I've been feeling lately- glad to know I'm not alone in feeling like I'm "behind". This post was so encouraging to me!
ReplyDeleteI just sent you a lil e-mail :)
ReplyDeleteI just came across your blog, and wow! this is exactly what I've been struggling with. I really enjoyed this post!!
ReplyDeleteI read your blog often and love how you mix fun posts with your real life and thoughts. You say stuff that i thought at 25 but didn't have the guts to share with the world.
ReplyDeleteI'm going to tell you, I've been there and done that- at 25-27 I was starting a job, trying to lose the freshman 15 and enjoying dating. Trust me- it will all happen when you're ready. In 3 years time I met my fiance, lost the weight, and found a great job when I finally gave up trying to control those aspects. Here's what I honestly believe-
God would not give you the desire for something unless he meant for you to have it one day.
happy writing!