I think I am having a quarter life crisis. Or rather, a quarter life frustration crisis.
As you all know my house is falling apart. I can not tell you how frustrated I am with this situation and just my living as a 24 yr old- single person- in a city where I have no family.
I started living outside the dorms my senior year of college. The first house I rented was with two other girls that were in my sorority and who were good friends. I loved living in that house and with them, although, living with roommates in general can be tough. The easiest thing about this living situation was that my dad still paid my rent and bills. I was still in undergrad so I had no income so this was my only choice. That reduced my stress quite a bit.
Then graduation came and went and no one knew what they were doing or where they were living so, I was left to fend for myself and pick up the slack of rent and bills. I was forced to live in a dump. Literally a dump. There was always something going wrong and my neighbors were seriously sketchy.
Then I find a roommate. And we move to a nice apartment, the nicest I had lived in since paying my own rent, but it was way out of the way of anything we needed to be close to. So we move into the house that I am now stuck in today.
I hate this house. It is old and falling apart and our landlord is a slum lord if you will ( I know I am dramatic).
I am also so tired of moving. SO TIRED. And I HATE, I mean HATE that I am at the subject and whim of roommates. If one of them needs to move or wants out of the lease, I am forced to either move and have my rent go up. I just want to live by myself.
I think this is just a hard time in life. I am 24, don't live near any family, single, not bringing in the big bucks and so not able to afford exactly what would suit me right now.
(I am very blessed though I must add. I have a wonderful family that helps me and I have an amazing job and great friends.)
But I would like my living situation to be solidified for longer than a year that a lease lasts. Is that too much to ask?
So right now I am in the in-between, not sure if I should stay where I am until my lease is up in the spring but wont I inevitably be finding myself in this situation then? Or just buck up and figure it all out now before my processions go up in flames?
Just say a little prayer for me, if your the praying kind, or send some good vibes my way.
Peace,
Awww honey I know how you feel. It can seem so hopeless at times. You will find your way, it just happens slowly, one day at at time. And if you did end up in that shack at least you'd have some FABULOUS bedding (I kid, I kid...). Love you girl.
ReplyDeleteWill definitely keep you in my thoughts. I'm sorry you are going through a tough time. That would frustrate me just as much. I know what it's like being 'tight' and not bringing in the big bucks, or just enough bucks to buy groceries some months! Keep looking up girl and a few years from now you will be nothing but proud of yourself for sticking through a tough time.
ReplyDeleteI swear to you 6 years ago I coukd have written this exact post. word. for. word.
ReplyDeleteit gets better, i promise!
the good news is....when you feel sad you get to look in the mirror at that adorable face of yours!
seriously, email me if you need to vent. i have sooo been where you are!! my nutty roommate stories could fill a book!!
Vent away sweet thing. You are going through some major changes and I know that it doesn't help that this is happening during the holidays, so VENT, VENT, VENT. You can call me up any time too!
ReplyDeleteYou may have to change your career to "GROCER" and come work for Jer and live with us! It would be an adventure. NO? Rats.
Well, I luuuuuuuvvvvv you and I'm thinking of you sweet thing!
So sorry to hear about all of this!! I completely know where you're coming from. Two years ago my hubby and I bought our first home (a condo). Two weeks after closing a spinkler malfunctioned flooding our condo w. 2 feet of water throughout the entire place. We had no clothes except what we were wearing at the time, which was soaking wet, and no family in the area! The condo had to be completely gutted cabinets, flooring, drywall and all and we lived in a hotel, albeit the Westin. Thank GOD for homeowner's insurance, which was amazing and covered everything. But even that didn't replace a lot of the things that were irreplaceable; wedding pics, favorite clothes, etc. We spent the Christmas season in a hotel suites. Five months later and lots of devastation, heartache, frustation and prayers we moved back in to a completely new and renovated home. Hang in there, it WILL get better! I'll be praying for you!
ReplyDeletekeep your head up! it will all work out...just be on the look out to see if there's any places you'd want to move into. the roommate thing is tough...I definitely know how you feel!
ReplyDeletei'll keep you in my thoughts, it will get better! :)
Ugh! I know exactly what you mean. I'm almost 24, don't know where I'm going, and am job-hunting right now. So irritating!! Things will get better though, as annoying as that sounds sometimes. :)
ReplyDeleteSo sorry you are going through this, and your comment about "slum lord" and being dramatic....as a third party landlord, you are not dramatic, it is true! That type of travesty is a slum lord, so I hope and pray that you are able to change your living quarters very soon! Things WILL get better. Until then, vent all you need, we are here as most of us have been in a similar place at some point in time! So, get it all off your chest!
ReplyDeleteI agree-- Having to have roommates sucks... I love living alone... It may mean buying one less dress a month but it's totally worth it.
ReplyDeleteOh, sweetie...I'm thinking about you! It WILL work out, I promise! XOXOXO
ReplyDeleteMoving is the worst! I've been packing up my life and moving it to and from school, abroad, the camp I work at and I'm so ready to just settle somewhere for a while, good luck with the housing situation!
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