I am reflecting a tiny bit today.
All those who have been in love before and then broken up, Isn't it the weirdest thing that you just lose your best friend?
This has happened to me. I am fine now. But whenever we run into each other or I see something that reminds me of us being together, I just stop for a second and think, " It is so odd that we shared this or it is so odd that we are in the same room together and don't even know each other anymore."
I still feel a little empty in a certain part of my heart when I am bombarded by thoughts or when we are in the same room like we were this weekend. It is like a cold spot in my heart aches. I wonder if this will ever go away or it is just what happens when love just stops.
I seriously think this is the strangest phenomena. That you can know people so intimately and then that intimacy is just gone, poof. Because you don't have anything else tying you together. Your not blood. With blood you don't choose to be intimate, you just are and you cant break apart blood. But when you choose to be intimate and then lose it, it is the strangest feeling.
Dont you think?
Peace,
I feel like I could have written this post.
ReplyDeleteI was just thinking about this - how someone who used to be inside my head and understand my thoughts... is now basically a stranger.
I feel weirdly naked when I think about how much he used to know about me. Weird.
You've put my exact thoughts into words. Breakups are so strange and really do leave an icy spot on your heart. I don't know how long that takes to go away or if it ever will but I know how you feel.
ReplyDeleteYou're right! It is so weird how relationships are in and out of your life so suddenly. I used to make the mistake of "filling in the blanks". In the beginning of a relationship I'd always give the person I was dating the benefit of the doubt and fill in the blanks with what I thought he was (or what I wanted him to be, honestly). I wasn't honest with myself. Then reality hit and I'd realize he wasn't the amazing person I 'thought he was'. (Imagine my surprise! Just yesterday he was prince charming!) The whole time he was sort of like a fictional character in my head. I'm sure guys do it too, which makes it even harder to base a relationship on. Looking back, I can say I've gained something from every relationship- but I think that there's something to be said for thinking you know someone, and not actually knowing them at all to begin with. (If that makes sense)
ReplyDeletePlease forgive me for the novel! Hope your heart heals quickly. :)
How right you are. It is so true and something that I don't think you will ever get completely over if you were really in love. Another phenomena in this crazy life.
ReplyDeletePS-I love that picture you found!